You did it, I know, I've made it worse, I know.
It's what I always do, I know.
You don't deserve it, I know.
I've been hurt, I've been left stranded, I've drown, I've learned to get away from that, to get away from them, to get way from it all, to get away from you.
And the key became the cage.
I'm used to hiding behind a laugh hiding behind hiding behind hiding behind (my fears).
I'm used to not opening up, not letting them in, not showing insides, not leaving my fortress (not leaving myself). I don't want it to hurt.
Yet it does.
I can't I can't I can't I can't (so many thing I can't do).
I've been doing this for too long and I can't stop it.
I've been overthinking everything for too long and I can't stop it.
I've been shutting myself off for too long and I can't stop it.
I've been distrusting everybody for too long and I can't stop it.
I've raised walls, I've hidden behind my own bars, I've set up the barbed wire, I'm laying inside my little cave, away from you, away from us, I really wanna be away from me.
I can't get past that I can't get past that I can't get past that (I can't get through us).
I opened up and I locked myself down.
It is done.
Please fix me.
Please don't let me do this.
Please don't let me go.
Sweetheart, what have I done to us?
It's not your fault. I'm sorry.
